User blog:WilburBilbur/I can't do this, man..

I can't deal with the fact that someday I'm going to lose all my friends on this wiki, I just can't.

So many people here have altered my perspective on right and wrong, and it's helped me a bit with my mental state.

But because of past interactions with my father, I know that one day he will find this account, and delete it without my knowledge. It's eating me up. It's driving me mad. It could happen today or tomorrow or next year, but it's unbearable to sit here and be on edge, hoping and praying he never finds this, and praying with my entire goddamn being he can trust me enough to handle myself. Sure, I've done some funked up shit too, I've seen lots of things online that I wish I could forget, but those images are burnt into my mind. The things I did with them, I'll never be the same, but that doesn't mean I can't change, right??

I just want a hug.